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After 2 year n 10 months........
What's left....... is just pain n pain........
Nothing else but PAINnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

Never ever had such pain till ur heart could die.......
Or it's a blessing .... rather than dragging on ..n getting more hurts

pain
pain
pain

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As day goes by since last friday...
I'd begin to search my heart ... to see whether I still have one burning heart...
but yesterday I found none left...
no more flame..no more burning..no more pumping.....
just silent n ease...


This is how one felt when ur heart really die
....... just a day or a minute could change the way u look at someone .... that u used to love, to care so much n more than ur life.......
no more heart pain as my heart are dead
yup....no more pain, no more from now

[But deep inside my heart, my soul - I still need him... just dunno y...
been asking myself over and over again...the answer still remained the same - I would still choose to be with him now, and next life and next........... without regrets......]


Just a small step to home...but such a long distance far far away now........

Just felt sorry for the little one as I m not able to furnish him with a complete love..care..n family
Please forgive me, my little angel

Mummy love u, my little angel

Anyway...Happy New Year n wishing myself for bundle of joy n laughter in future..oh..
Forgotten..I already had my joy..that's my Little Angel ^o^ my silly boy

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