Friday, July 20, 2007

Appreciated.......

Human r funny : )

They'll start to appreciate things only when they r losing it...........
They'll start to sweet talk u when they found out that u r losing confidence in the relationship....

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Humpty Dumpty ^.^

Not been posting for Looooonng....

Now beginning to feel how humpty-dumpty felt.. clumsy, heavy, off-balance, breathless sometime.........

Never ever thought that this would be so difficult - thought it would just be as easier as before (but that was > 13 years ago) ...see age do catch up !! Never try to deceive yourself that you r still young for this .. but it's getting more difficult as the days r nearing.................. and I m much excited too !!

Getting more tired n tired n tired...n pain n pain n pain... not able to sleep as much at nite as the little one would wriggles when u r in unfavourable position...really naughty !

Dunno what should be done...lots of unsolved problems.. really not wanting to be bother by other problems... just hoping for this to come first : )

Previous months - had been a tough time for me as I'd hold myself too tight ... trying to solve things asap...but sometimes when we learn to wait for the suitable time to comes rather than rushing for it...you would be more happier n less stressed.....

Learning to believe in forever would be difficult...
Learning to believe in someone can be difficult too...
But....... You got to believe to believe !!!!!!!!

Everyone got his/her strenghts and weaknesses.... If you r not able to tolerate the other's weaknesses, then things won't work out... Things would only work out when u r able to tolerate it.... not for a day, not for a month, not for a year.. BUT for a LIFETIME......

Phew : ) such a strong determination...and not wanting to fail again........

Monday, March 26, 2007

TemPer - TiRed - SurrenDer

Temper - Been having this QuicK Temper for quite sometime..just felt very "Man-Chang" all the time...can't stand the students, can't stand the people around, can't stand the stupid jam...


Tired - Getting tired all day long..and most of the day.... it wasn't like this a decade ago.. probably when age catches up, you have to admit it ; ( Just hope that everything would be fine and felt so sorry to my little angel for what I'd did in the beginning stage coz of my temper.. so sorry.. please forgive me


Surrender - Gotta learn not to be tooooooo stubborn, give in moreee, take a second break when I'm angry to cool down ..... and learn to accept to live as a family which I'd fear coz I'd been living alone all this while... and not believing in relationship


Just hope everything will be a smooth sailing journey to happiness.........together with HIM n Little Angel ^o^

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

To Choose or Not........

When you are given a choice - would you consider it or you'll wait till the last minute, last resort only you'll force yourself to choose it????

Have you ever experience the time where you'd made up your mind but out of sudden something came in and busted everything .... and you swirl your decision......

To choose to have a family or to choose to stay the same way.... it's hard because all this needs determination and belief...............

What should I do?????????

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

W? H? Y?

Been lazy for so long to blog...many things happened in this 1.5 years life in KL.

Don't know whether it is a wrong or rite decision ... to move up to KL in search for the long lost smile.................

Recalling the year/s back at here, there are some sadness, happiness, hurts and dissapointment done : (

Am I happy now? I don't know...just wondering why as we grow old, happiness seems so far to reach... why it is so hard to smile again without worries and doubts??? Why???

I think I might not able to be free as I want, be joyful as I hope............

Why it is so hard to step back? Why it is so hard to not wanting to win? Why it is so hard to compromise? Why it is so hard to be open? Why....so many why????

I'm just too and so tired of "not able to be what you wannabe"

Why we have to wear a mask whenever we are?? WHY??

Thursday, January 04, 2007

Wisssssssshhhhhhhh

SkY: Two hearts with 16 tear lines ????????

4 from eyes, 4 from nose, 4 from sky's mouth and 4 from..............

Just hope that it would be only 4 lines of ......happy tears from this moment onwards



BiBi: Two hearts with !!! Scars ???????

Love and hurt are bestfren... The more you love a person, the deeper you'll hurt them

Just hope that what was left behind would be.....happy memories and happy trails