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Temper - Been having this QuicK Temper for quite sometime..just felt very "Man-Chang" all the time...can't stand the students, can't stand the people around, can't stand the stupid jam... Tired - Getting tired all day long..and most of the day.... it wasn't like this a decade ago.. probably when age catches up, you have to admit it ; ( Just hope that everything would be fine and felt so sorry to my little angel for what I'd did in the beginning stage coz of my temper.. so sorry.. please forgive me Surrender - Gotta learn not to be tooooooo stubborn, give in moreee, take a second break when I'm angry to cool down ..... and learn to accept to live as a family which I'd fear coz I'd been living alone all this while... and not believing in relationship Just hope everything will be a smooth sailing journey to happiness.........together with HIM n Little Angel ^o^

When you are given a choice - would you consider it or you'll wait till the last minute, last resort only you'll force yourself to choose it???? Have you ever experience the time where you'd made up your mind but out of sudden something came in and busted everything .... and you swirl your decision...... To choose to have a family or to choose to stay the same way.... it's hard because all this needs determination and belief............... What should I do?????????

Been lazy for so long to blog...many things happened in this 1.5 years life in KL. Don't know whether it is a wrong or rite decision ... to move up to KL in search for the long lost smile................. Recalling the year/s back at here, there are some sadness, happiness, hurts and dissapointment done : ( Am I happy now? I don't know...just wondering why as we grow old, happiness seems so far to reach... why it is so hard to smile again without worries and doubts??? Why??? I think I might not able to be free as I want, be joyful as I hope............ Why it is so hard to step back? Why it is so hard to not wanting to win? Why it is so hard to compromise? Why it is so hard to be open? Why....so many why???? I'm just too and so tired of "not able to be what you wannabe" Why we have to wear a mask whenever we are?? WHY??

SkY: Two hearts with 16 tear lines ???????? 4 from eyes, 4 from nose, 4 from sky's mouth and 4 from.............. Just hope that it would be only 4 lines of ......happy tears from this moment onwards BiBi: Two hearts with !!! Scars ??????? Love and hurt are bestfren... The more you love a person, the deeper you'll hurt them Just hope that what was left behind would be.....happy memories and happy trails

Wao...such a long break from my blog...kind of missing it ^_^ Been quite busy with lot of works recently...non stop working days with no break in between for two weeks.. body ache ; (

Sunday, 2nd April 2006 10:20am I'm so sorry that I'd always hurt you whenever you mention about our future..how we will be together..I'll always said that it might not be ME! I just can't - cos u deserve someone better - and it is just not ME..to think and talk about the future just worries me and I'm still lost, so lost and so sorry for putting you in such an awkward situation and giving your families such a big false hope...so sorry You always ask me - is this the life that I would always want to be with you - without any commitment??? A year, two years, three years..how long I want to be like this?? keep on running from reality...and choose to be in this same situation/condition.... I'm so selfish - always not taking care of your feelings and just don't care enough for lots and lots of things.. Do you really sees what you want?? Are you really that sure of it????? You always said I don't like to ask favour from you ..I tend to do things without asking...

Just came back a few days ago after a long long trip to Miri... Things are happening here and there along the stay at there... Thought I could use this trip to sort out my mind !! Am I really able to ???? 1st April 2006 (2:00 pm) Reached Miri airport - feeling very hungry since my last breakfast early in the morning... didn't have anything at the plane - cos they only serve - Nasi Lemak : ( So the first thing when I reached the airport - is to get something to eat...Never know that a 'Butter Milk Bun' would taste that nice (And it is the only nice bun from Ma Bakery, Miri) When to Mega Hotel - place where I'll be staying for 26 days. It is situated in the town center..a quiet place.. Nite comes softly.... have some rest and then after taken my bath - decided to go to the nearest supermarket to get some milk and oats and drinks and most wanted a pair of comfortable shoes cos what I had on my feet was my high heel.. Manage to get the things I wanted and walk back from Imp...