Monday, January 14, 2008

Past Vs Now

For so long , I have known the deepest fear in me - Losing....
Since young I'm always alone - this makes me learn to be independent and shutting myself out of others... forcing myself to grow strong and never believe in others' love...

The fear of losing makes me such a evil person where I'll just try to get rid of whoever near me...
The fear of losing makes me push things away ... throw things away.....
and close my heart from everyone... not letting anyone in to take care for me..

I'm so tired...so much in pain...till the master said he could felt my pain.....
It's time for me to think of what I want and not pushing it away......
I know that my action, words had hurt people around me..who love me as I was too blind to feel it....
Just wanna said that I'm really SORRY and please forgive me......
So SORRY, SORRY, SORRY, SORRY, SORRY...............................

Starting from this moment -
I'll live my life to the fullness each and everyday...
And letting people in ..to care for me as I'm not alone ..
Learn to appreciate things and consent of all things......
Cheers to a new me : )

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